Bobby is still going to meetings, now we just don't really talk about them. I'm just trying to concentrate on myself instead of just him, a healthy thing to do anyway for anybody. He's mad at someone in the meeting that I hate the most that he goes to, so he's not going there, probably for only a day or two. You know how testosterone works... he's always likes to antagonize people that make him mad... all that high school stuff still going on in sick na meetings. But I'm now numb to it, I've got my own life to deal with, even though those meetings do effect my life too, as well as every family member of every person in those meetings and unfortunately not in a good way... but mind control has a funny way of warping the way the members of na look at things. Very unhealthy and sad.
12 Steps Yo Yo
This is my place to express my opinion on the downside of the 12 step program, ok na or narcotics anonymous in particular. I will hold nothing back, and I hope that you will express your feelings too, whether you agree with me or not. Those of us family members that are dealing with a family member that is now addicted to 12 step meetings need a forum that we can express our opionions on this very touchy subject. I've needed this forum for a long time
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Bobby is still going to meetings, now we just don't really talk about them. I'm just trying to concentrate on myself instead of him, a healthy thing to do. He's mad at someone in the meeting that I hate the most that he goes to, so he's not going there, probably for only a day or two. You know how testosterone works... he's always likes to antagonize people that make him mad... all that high school stuff still going on in sick na meetings. But I'm now numb to it, I've got my own life to deal with, even though those meetings do effect my life too, as well as every family member of every person in those meetings and unfortunately not in a good way... but mind control has a funny way of warping the way the members of na look at things. Very unhealthy and sad.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Its been awhile since I've posted.... Bobby has cut down on meetings... said he was going to quit them all but unfortunately its just as addicting as the drugs and he is still going whenever he can... just being more quiet about it... so not much has changed... I know... boo hoo on me... na and the people in there will always come first... always. I could say more, but I'm not...
Labels: NA meetings oh no
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Boyfriend hadn't been to a meeting in two weeks!!! He's been so much better to be around, although everything I do still bothers him, I try not to let that get to me, although some days it does he wants me to know when to be quiet and when to speak up... ok.... notice I said hadn't been to a meeting... well he went to a meeting yesterday, which I was upset about.... It's too hard for him to quit all the way cold turkey which is what he needs, when he exposes himself to them its all over.
You know what's ironic.... na has an ad on this page. Oh well doesn't matter much since I'm the only one reading this page.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
I love him, but I miss a normal life, where two people live together, help each other, both work toward a better life, get along, don't yell, don't dwell on every past word, truly forgive.... enjoy spending time together and can handle hanging around the house for more than a day. A normal life where na doesn't dictate. I would love to say... na? oh I remember that word, that's a thing of the past... we've moved on and are so much happier because of it... we do meaningful things now...at least when I sleep I can dream these things, since I now know the truth that na never goes away... never.
Well boyfriend is now mad at me once again, this time because I didn't want him to read this blog, at least not at the present time... because now he is back into the brainwashing of the meetings and the guy he is hanging around with is big time into meetings, so now I am the bad guy (as usual).
His new friend (I think I called him Ron) calls him a lot of times just like a girlfriend - even boyfriend complained about it (its really creepy)... you're going to the meeting right??? are you coming, when are you leaving, after boyfriend left Ron called I told him he was on his way to pick him up and he sounded so happy. Guess he doesn't get out much.
I never did drugs, but I'm all caught up in this shit, whether I want it or not. I'm na'd saturated, but he doesn't understand, or care, na always comes first, get with the program.
Now I'm going to go have a good cry.
Friday, July 07, 2006
Isn't there anyone out there??? Anyone going through the same emotional roller coaster that I am??? Or anyone that wants to scream about how great na is??? (gag)... Come on, I can take it, give it all you've got... or are you all too busy going to meetings???
Okay, I'm back... unfortunately with the same old story. I thought my boyfriend was trying to change... he was cutting back on the narcotics anonymous ( na ) meetings, trying to wean himself down to one a week, but never coming close to that but at least getting down to 3-4 per week until he met a new friend who is around during the day and goes to at least 2 meetings a day... so he's back to at least 1-2 a day. And listening to all the gossip, especially about Bangel and all the messed up things he does to his poor wife... messing around with a 20 something year old while his wife is at home with the young baby. He lies, and then tells more lies. Just the type of person you want your boyfriend to be around.
The guy he hangs around with now round the clock (well call him Ron, since that's a pretty common name, and I'll probably forget it by the next posting). Ron and said boyfriend met in meeting when Ron's to be exwife was being an idiot with another idiot in the rooms, and said boyfriend stopped Ron from popping the other guy. (you know, that high school behavior). The one that cheated with my boyfriend is now engaged to a guy as old as said boyfriend (50, she's 24). What goes around comes around, she's due for what she did to me. I'm just so happy for her (more sarcasm) that she's engaged with someone from the rooms, with a temper (surprise surprise, who in the rooms doesn't? - and I ask that very seriously). May the two of them continue to live their miserable lives together, like I said she'll get back what she put out. I'm a lot wiser from that whole experience. Guess that's my rambling for tonight, kind of got off the subject which was..... the boyfriend's all talk and back to a big routine of meetings... I guess some things will never change... so I'm keeping myself busy big time and not thinking too much about that crap except how I can make a million... any ideas out there???
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Monday, May 29, 2006
Just when I thought we'd moved on with our lives and things would maybe smooth out there always has to be be a monkey wrench thrown in, especially when dealing with the high school mentality. Bina's new stalker boyfriend wants to beat up on Bobby because he was with her when he was going through his midlife crisis. There's got to be more to that than what I've heard, why would he care if things were over, unless... Now the drama will continue, since high schoolers have a hard time just letting things go, like adults would. I know things won't change as long as there are meetings.